Scents Of A Past

Recently, my grandmother gave me a suitcase. It was brown, small and worn out leather, and it was filled with newspaper clippings, black-and-white photos, magazine articles, old passports, worn-out Bibles, cufflinks, and even an expired bank card. This suitcase had a special distinction to it because it once belonged to my grandfather, Christiaan ‘Goggie’ Johannes …

Stones Of Remembrance

‘Those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.’ Psalm 9:10 In every relationship, trust is vital. Without trust, a solid foundation cannot be built. The key to building long-lasting relationships is to have complete faith in one another, knowing that you can depend on each …

A Decade & An Age

There’s this website where you can calculate the number of days you’ve been alive on this earth. Accordingly, I have now been here on this earth for a total of 11,167 days. I’m from the Millennial Generation. If you haven’t yet heard or read of these generational calculations, read this chart – it is a …

Of Roots & Wings

‘It is 365 years since the first Dutch settlers arrived at the Cape but no more than 180 years since Afrikaner nationalism gained momentum and barely 100 years since Afrikaans was formally recognized as a language.’ John Battersby Yesterday I was at a restaurant, and as I was playing with my 2-year-old nephew in the …

The Parent Trap

The relationship between children and their parents can be a complicated thing. Our parents are complicated human beings themselves. We are an extension of them, so that already makes us complicated as soon as we come into this world. We carry their DNA, their personality traits, their physical attributes. We can also end up carrying …

Waai Wind Waai

Dit is die dag voordat ek en my ma Kaap toe vlieg. Ons beplan om eers Stellenbosch toe te gaan, dan Robertson, Gansbaai en uiteindelik Blouberg. Ek voel alreeds onrustig oor die padreis, maar ek kan nie my vinger daarop sit nie. Dit is vreemd, wat ek het nog nooit so gevoel oor enige iets …

All In The Same Boat

I met tannie Jules around the time I became well-known in Bloemfontein as a motivational speaker. She was a friend of my grandmother’s and they both lived in a retirement village just outside of Bloemfontein. My grandmother quickly became friends with tannie Jules; conversations with her was engaging, interesting and never dull. My grandmother had …

A Few Good Men

A few years ago I was the leading actress in a theatre play called ‘Kinders van Stilte,’ which was adapted and translated from the Broadway play ‘Children of a Lesser God’ by Mark Medoff. In this theatre play, I had the role of Sandra, a 26-year-old deaf woman who refused to speak like a hearing …

Disclosed Closure

Disclosure means to make ‘a fact, especially a secret, known.’ This is my secret: I have unintentionally lied about something for years. Eleven years, to be exact. Now I need to bring it out in the open: I had friends in high school. Five of them, to be exact. The final nail in the coffin …

Juggling Glass Balls

We are constantly being bombarded with voices. Certain voices scream at us, taunting us with our fears. Some voices whisper at us; it is barely audible and we hardly recognize them. Other voices speak to us as daily reminders of the things that are missing in our lives. Advertisements. Social media. Family. Friends. Colleagues. They …

Things I Have Loved: Part 1

It is inevitable, but undeniable. We are constantly being shaped by the things around us. Music. Books. Television. Films. Magazines. It influences us and the way we view the world. It moves us, makes us come alive, changes us. We’re not always aware of it. * Lately I’ve been pondering about the things that has …

Regular Old Moon

These past few weeks I’ve been having genuine ‘aha’ moments. Moments of revelation, moments of clarity and relief. For the first time in my life, I am relieved that I do not have children – yet. It is a discovery that I am very much surprised about. * I love kids. When I was in …

Disturbed By Dust

This essay is a hard one for me to write. This essay means I have to think about all the people who’ve wronged me, rejected me or didn’t see me for who I really am. Especially where my career was concerned. People who said yes to me, people who promised opportunities to me but didn’t …

Lion In My Bedroom

I have a gorgeous Danish feline called AllyCat. He’s been my loyal and faithful companion for eleven years. Ally wakes me up every morning, follows me around the whole day and regularly interrupts my sleep patterns during the nights. In short, he is my shadow. He has also been my ears for many years now. …